4/10/2023 0 Comments Game of life quarter life crisisWant to inspire others with yours? Submit your story here.Welcome to our website. This story was submitted by a member of our community. But you do need to let go of some artificial worlds! Always get yourself to the next level! There is so much more out there. Fight and work hard for what you find important. No more evading of hard truths or emotions, but facing them head on.Īnd that is what is important. Is life easy now? F*ck no! Do I still feel the need to flee reality? Yes, and I do create a healthy mental distance sometimes. I don’t hate myself anymore – I really like me actually :)! And that is a really nice way to live. Now I have a set of values and goals I work hard for. Running half a marathon, rowing a 100k race, solo traveling in Asia for 6 months, hooking up with the hottest Venezuelan girl ever, and much more.īut more importantly – I became way more confident and self reliant. I even started achieving some amazing things. My personality, that had withered in my screen lit room, was slowly reviving. In the end I grew stronger! I got fit, met girls, made new friends and worked hard on my studies. Step by step relearning how to normally interact with people was awkward and painful to say the least. With lots of small relapses, setbacks, but also small victories.Įspecially my self esteem and social skills had suffered these past years. And I worked out, even if I felt like lethargically lying on the couch. I went out and started socializing, even if I felt like hiding under the covers. So I immersed myself in positive reading, even if I didn’t feel like it. (I don’t think Game Quitters was around in 2011 :).) My entire mindset had to change. Classics like “ How to Make Friends and Influence People’ and blogs like NerdFitness. I started reading constructive blogs and books. But slowly yet surely, during the next months, I drastically reduced the amount of gaming and binge watching. In the past if I felt a bit depressed I would hop on my digital steed and drive off to kill some undead. I was 24 now, what the heck was I doing with my life? Where was I going? Was I just going to sit inside for the rest of my life – gaming, jacking off, sleeping and repeating? What about my graduation that was long due? What about all the experiences life had to offer? What about girls? Suffice to say, I became quite depressed. Like a tidal wave of realism and pain gulfing over the fragile ego I had left. The existential crisis I had postponed since I was 17 finally caught on. No matter what, I was going to be an orc mage warrior, and I was going to kill dragons! *(Celcius mind you ), so around 86 Fahrenheit). It didn’t matter what my buddies where doing, if I had exams or not, or whether it was 30 degrees outside. The apex of my compulsive gaming was Skyrim! It was incredible! I don’t know how many hours I spent in that fantasy world. Although it was more numbing than real enjoyment. My computer was just this instant satisfaction dispenser. But it didn’t matter,… because I mainly interacted online. I became more a hull of a person than a full rounded character. It all seems harmless at first, but your ‘life energy’ is slowly sucked out. My old roommates still can’t believe I finished 600+ episodes of One Piece in a few weeks. Not only was gaming an escape for me, but anime and porn as well. Need to study hard? Rejected, or dumped? Months of gaming is the cure! Just numb myself a bit with a long session of RPGs and strategy games. When in the real world my life wasn’t going that well – I would flee to gaming. But once I was in university, it became a problem – I started using it as a drug. I didn’t have any trouble at school really. Get some sun, make some friends, move your body! “Naaaah” Because what could compete with this fantasy world? With this compelling narrative? And these amazing graphics? We poorly understood English and the game, but through trial and error, we found out how the game worked, and we learned a new language while doing it. Years later, I remember playing Heroes of Might and Magic II with my brothers. But it was even amazing to just watch him play. I sucked, because I couldn’t play all day like my buddy. It was amazing! The sheer fun of this simple adventure on the TV, amazing. When I was 4 or 5 years old, a friend of mine got a Nintento Entertainment System.
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